So, yesterday morning I was walking through the corridors at work and came up to the printer area. Low and behold, the printer was getting repaired, and the guy that was fixin’ it up is a major cutie. For a slightly heavier guy he is sweeeet. Nice light blue eyes, tanned skin, very short hair (I guess it could have been shaved), a blue golf style t-shirt, blue baseball cap, and brown corduroy pants that highlighted his nice, nice ass. Plus, he’s around my height, too.

I could barely take my eyes off of him. I came up with all sorts of excuses to travel past or near the printer. He would be a total hottie if he lost some of his pudge, but then again I could say the same thing about myself. OMG, what a nice ass! I think he caught me checking him out. His name is Kirkland.

I love Spring. There were a couple of guys jogging in the park without their shirts on. Stan was also out at lunch. He took off on his bike, but before he did that I was able to scope out his tremendously beautiful legs and shapely ass in his shorts. Oh man! He has more thighs than a bucket of chicken (spank me, I know it was bad). Damn, I wanted to be his bike seat.

It’s the beginning of hottie season. Exactly where do they go in Winter? I wonder. Mmmm…

I stumbled across a great blog the other day. It’s from a really cool guy. He’s 40, totally buff (ex-army), hot, honest about who he is, and really smart to boot. Some of his ideas and thoughts on the world are right on the ball. Plus, he loves music, and not just one style either. His tastes are all over the place, I really dig that. Everything about him is sexy, and not just his bod.

I’ve read so much of his blog, but I’m not even close to being finished. He does this really interesting thing; sometimes he blogs on video or mp3. Most of his video blogs are done shirtless, boy does he have huge nipples. I want to latch myself to them.

He also has AIDS.

Being a lonely gay guy in this city/province, I don’t get out that often. Therefore I don’t meet a lot of people. I’ve met and known other gay people, but none that I call my friends. Not even close. So, I have never known anyone with HIV or AIDS. What a stereotypical thing to say. My bad.

While I was reading his blog, I realized that I know very little about these diseases and viruses. Our educational system doesn’t do a very good job tackling these issues. Now, say in your Smokey Bear voice “Only you can prevent pregnancy. Only you can prevent genital warts. Only you can prevent the spread of viruses.”

It’s no wonder the amount of HIV and AIDS cases had been climbing in the last several years. Kids need to know what HIV and AIDS does to someone, and not just how it is contracted. If people really knew what someone with AIDS really goes through, I’m sure that they’d be scared shitless to have sex without a condom. It has to presented honestly and without censor. It can’t be glossed over. Show the frail bodies, show the lesions, show the tubes and machines, show the sunken eyes, show the last breath.

GeekSlut’s blog has opened my eyes a lot. I can’t begin to fathom what he’s been going through for the last decade. Over the years, he’s been really sick and unhealthy. When originally diagnosed the doctor’s told him that he would be dead within a year. That was like 10 years ago.

I don’t know how to say this properly with the respect it needs, but he’s taken control of his body and hasn’t let AIDS beat him. Not a lot of people can say that. He’s been through some very agonizing times, but to look at him, you wouldn’t know it (unless you knew what to look for). Sure he has scars, but I didn’t notice them right away, I was really drawn to his power eyes. They hold a lot of experience, pain, hurt, love (yeah, it’s there), and lust.

The only thing that kind of scares me about this dude, it that he’s a total slut. He’ll basically fuck anything that crosses his path. I’m sure he’s safe with HIV- guys, but he’s so unsafe with poz’s. I don’t like that. I mean, what the fuck is up with that! I’d love to have him pound me, but as long as I knew it was safe. He doesn’t use condoms, unless he has to. And a lot of the times, it’s not hoo-hum-up-my-bum kind of sex either, he’s into pretty raunchy kink. He actually goes out looking to hook up with other poz guys just so they don’t have to use condoms. I really don’t like that, but my reaction could just be my lack of education or understanding of AIDS. But still, it seems so wrong.

At least he’s in touch with his very strong sexual side and identity. He knows who he is, and won’t let anyone tell him otherwise.

I know nothing about this guy, except what he’s presented to the world through his blog. I’ve kind of fallen for him, and I’m beginning to really like this guy, but the AIDS thing really scares me. It’s supposed to scare me. Whatever. It’s not like I’ll ever meet him.

I’ll continue to admire him from afar.

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My Current Favourite Dish: GeekSlut, scary but really sexy. Jesse Palmer, the guy from the Bachelor, is pretty hot too.
Current Addiction: Nifty is losing out to GUBA, but I don’t think it’ll lose out.
In the DVD Player: Nothing in the DVD player, but I’ve been into Sinead O’Connor’s “Year of the Horse” concert I have on Laser Disc.
In the CD Player: Immortal Beloved soundtrack. Fur Elise is totally amazing, as is Moonlight Sonata. I love Beethoven.
On the Tube: Las Vegas season finale was pretty good. I actually cried. Cried! For a TV show! I don’t want anything to happen to Danny.